I learned some months back that sometimes it is okay to slow down and to not only acknowledge but also grieve the reality that we may not always experience the gift of community as fully as we long to. I have also learned this truth: no earthly relationship was ever meant to carry the weight of all our needs and satisfy them. Only Jesus can and He alone! Though this truth sometimes makes it feel it like it is only the likes of us that have been deprived of so much, uncertain of whether that’s true or not or if it’s even a helpful thought. I am certain of this; God will always find ways to refresh our souls and renew our strength. I do not always know how He will do it, but I have seen Him do it and I trust that He will continue in His faithfulness.
I never shared my experience of attraction with anyone until I was 18. Until then, it was buried deep in my heart. One day, I finally came out to a friend. I was scared because I knew most people wouldn’t want to be friends with me after that. But he was different. Instead of judging me, he leaned close and told me he still loved me, and even now, more than ever.
She drives a CX-5, silver to be precise, I even know how the engine starts. She looks like someone I’d get along with well. I know when it’s she who has parked the Mazda and when it’s her roommate. She is beautiful. For many months she was a secret door I opened and allowed myself to have endless conversing’s with. Ahem, in my head of course. We had never talked even but I wanted to talk to her. What would I say though? Hey CX, I sorta kinda like you and that hairstyle looks good on you? Then what?
oday as I had my daily walk, I started by thanking God for creating men (I mean the male human species). And that he allowed me to be attracted to them. Even to the extent that I tend to love some so deeply. I thanked him for…